seeing to the end a building u've designed, put in thousands of hours labouring over drawings, finally built?
taking the exam and getting the paper that allows you to legally call yourself an architect?
everytime i fall ill and get rest days off work
my mind starts wondering and questions like these always pop up
i so relish spending day time in our house
tending to my plants, cleaning the house, tidying the mess,
i even thought of baking! i used to bake ginger bread cookies, bread loaves, pizza bases...
life's like that isn't it...
if i do make it a full time job to be housewife
such domestic activities might soon bore me & evolve into chores...
but for now, i really feel so tempted to let go off everything
(imagining myself unclenching my tightly clenched fists,
and everything falling off one by one)
and just do the things that i enjoy
not checking shop drawings, worrying if things are built correctly,
not self-doubting if it will turn out good,
not having to argue with incompetent lazy contractors,
not having to manage everyone's expectations,
appease those lofty foreign consultants...
i really just want to sit and read inspiring books,
(just finished reading alligators, old mink, new money)
package, manage & perhaps making into business mum's tatting & baking,
giving new leases of life to old unwanted furniture,
open a cafe/florist/retail shop,
enjoying a cup of good coffee in the afternoon, in a nice cafe, & reading
i need some courage.
9 hours ago
11 comments:
I support you Mdm Teo! That's pretty much my fantasy too, minus the tatting.:)
haha thanks for e support ms lak!
Alas, as u have rightly coined it, it IS a fantasy.
What is it w pp like us?? Hahaha...
hmm.... it's good to take a break sometimes... maybe a year or so may really let you know what you want in life!!
Jia you!!
hey HL, i'm in such a dilemma... =p
the other side of me really wanna see it built...
Btw, u stil keep a blog? Can sms me e url?
thanks for e encouragment =)
eh.. make a business out of ur mum's baking and tatting? then she has to start tatting intensively and churn out lots ... wo ho ho!
i vote for cafe or florist!!
small time hobby "business" can? haha... we open restaurant lah.. steamboat restaurant, then tyre and i can go around teaching pp how to cook crab meat
hey, i hear ya - really, i do.
i need some vision, in addition to courage.
g'luck to you.
i will definitely want to spend much time at your cafe/florist/bookshop place - in fact, if that happens, i shall make time to spend there! :)
work can always wait. :)
limegreenspyda - u so nice =) since my labour&wait post u have already been a supporter.
i see yer name in the sia mag editorial team - art director! so proud of u. =) i'm sure u have laboured much for your name to appear on that list
for now, i shall labour & wait it out, for my bldg to be completed. good or bad it turns out, at least can say i have worked my best, and then give it a rest!
hey girl, know exactly how you feel. every single sentence that you just blogged describes how i felt almost a year ago! since then, i don't regret my decision at all and the break has really given me a chance to gain back my sanity, my physical/ mental/ emotional well-being. i feel "healed" and at peace, something i have not felt ever since i started work 5 yrs ago!
anyway just wanted to encourage you to follow your dreams (if $$ permits) because life's too short! but i'm glad u decided to finish the bldg as i think it will be a major milestone in your life, whatever you decide to do after that, so go for it! whatever happens, u'll have my support!!! if you open a flower shop i'll make sure tx buys lots of flowers from you... for me! :)
w tai tai! like i emailed u before, sad to see u guys leave the company one by one... but we can still play mj together whenever (when u r back)!
these lull periods of mine are about as consistent as periods! hahaha... but no matter what still must endure... and hope to finish well.
must enjoy yourself tremendously these 2 yrs that u have in melbs arh! :) everytime i walk past your old seat, i think of u in melb, marketing at vic mart, drinking good coffee, i also feel happy haha...
yes yes! can you sms me your email add so that I can add you??? it's a closed blog... just hope you don't find it boring coz it focus mainly on SY =)
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